Depression Hurts.

I feel myself slowly creeping into a depression.. I feel empty, my chest hurts for no reason, I'm sad but I feel numb.. I want nothing to do with Andre, I wish I could disappear.. Its times like these that make me wish I had another home, somewhere I could go stay alone for awhile, til I felt better, and come back like nothing ever happened. I wish I could just vanish, like a depression vacation.. God I hate feeling this way... If only I could just "get over it" or "stop over thinking things" or "deal with it"... My husband has no clue about my irrational feelings and I can't talk to him because he brushes it off like its my fault I feel like this because I choose to feel like this.. If only it were that simple.. I wish I could talk to him..... But I just can't. He doesn't understand and I can't make him understand. Maybe one day he won't look at my feelings as irrational and just look at how I feel instead.. Rational or not.