I signed up for FASFA

The other day I filled out a sign up for fasfa. You read right. I applied for finacial aid! I have not thought about a career since I dropped out of high school. I had a dream of becoming a veterinary assistant, studying at auburn university, and my mom killed that. Dead. Done... Since then, everywhere I have been in my life, I felt stuck. Nothing I did or was doing, made me feel proud of myself. I was just living. Now I am planning for a future, mind you I picked this field because of money, but not for spending for security, to help my husband feel secure. It may not be right for me, but I have a direction, and who knows.. I may love this career choice. God I hope so. But now idk what to do. This is new, and scary. I have never applied to college, I've YET applied to college, I have been handed a better paying job, but with risks. It may not allow me to go to college, it may not allow me time to spend with the people I've grown to love, it may cost me my education award... Is it worth it? Idk... I'll have to see what comes of the fasfa first I guess. Go talk to CACC and see what I can get into and when.. Figure class schedules out and see what will be best for me. We will see I guess.