I Miss it Sometimes.

Watched a music video today and the way he looked at the cameran this little gesture he made with his face... Guys used to do that to me. They used to look at me like that. I guess like I was a piece of meat. While I in no way miss being treated like a piece of meat, or property of some kind... I miss being stared down. I miss seeing lust in their eyes. I am most attracted to someone's eyes, and when they would look me dead in the eyes like that, I felt connected in a way. Andre doesn't like extended eye contact, tho I don't understand why, he just doesn't, and I've come to accept it... Doesn't make me miss it any less tho. I love my life now, but I do find myself missing the ghetto sometimes. It was never boring that's for sure. And living in housing you had people all around you, if I wanna see someone now I have to drive there, back then the party was usually on the front porch out front. I miss it, I'm happy for the peace I now have, whether you go out there or not they partying, but I do miss the fast access to people. Just something on my mind I wanted to write about.