To Be or Not To Be

So the last post, I was one day from cycle day 1. I had started spotting, but the next day was technically cycle day 1. As i mentioned before we did letrozole and injectables this time. And we had some progress! I got two follicles, both of them reached maturity, in fact over it, and I got to do my trigger shot! So the last few days I have been taking hpt's testing out my trigger shot, and I think it's successfully taken my mind off the fact that I'm technically in my TWW. I haven't thought much about it other than I can't wait for November 29th. I so hope I get pregnant, and I hope I stay that way.. But.. That would be too easy. If this works, I will feel a lot like Charlotte on SATC did. She said "Nobody gets everything they ever wanted, bad things happen to good people" it can happen, and realistically I know our luck, I know it can't be that easy.... But what if it is? And I mentioned I have two follicles, what happens if both implant? What happens if they split before they do? 😱 I would be so excited but so terrified. We can't afford such a thing! Hell we can't even afford one to be honest. So many crazy thoughts running through my head, makes me glad I plan to take next month off.. But that's my update, you'll definitely be hearing from me one way or the other come December 1st. Loves!