I Gave Up

So after my last post, I gave up. I quit focusing on my goals, I quit exercising, I quit watching my diet. It all just went away. Today I went to the doctor for an ear infection, and stepped on that scale. I am back up to 220. thats almost a 20lb gain from where I was. That is unacceptable. I am so ready to get back into the gym, I can finally hear it calling me back, but this time I am going balls deep. I am not messing around this time, if I kill myself in this process so be it, but I am ready to take my health seriously. I'm ready.